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Hyep korang =) Skang aku tgh takde idea nak bebelog.. tapi aku juz nak share ngan korang.. d tahun yang baru.. perjalanan hidup yang baru.. aku sangat² hepy ngan kehidupan aku skang.. alhamdulillah.. dengan rezeki Nya.. hidup aku telah kembali teratur.. syukurrrr alhamdulillah =)

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Salam ols.. da lame aku tak menghapdet belog berok aku neh.. untuk pengetahuan kawan² sume.. saya sudah bekerja.. walaupun jauh dari bidang yang saya harapkan.. tapi takpe.. boleh blaja n menambah pengetahuan.. skang saya bekeja di legal firm.. Dave Anan Advocates & Solicitors.. ari² mengadap fail yang menimbun².. memang sgt bz.. tapi enjoy bekeja.. hmm saya tanak membebel panjang².. nanti ade mase saya hapdet lagi.. chow sin chi :)

Salam....

Besawang belog burok aku neh.. sigh~ hmm maklom la.. ketiadaan lappy.. sebab tulah taleh nak hapdet.. hmm neh pown aku dapat hapdet sebab pinjam lappy Lisz.. aku nak hapdet resume aku semalam.. skang aku kat A'Famosa, Melaka.. dorang (June, Lisz, Eid, Reen n Supit) wat reunion.. kire vacation la.. dapat la aku menyemak sekali hakhakhak~

Taon lepas.. taon yang penoh ngan drama.. drama kehidupan.. orang berdrama.. adusss~ memacam.. semak oo hidup aku.. ape pown tabley.. huhuhu
Sungguh pon banyak drama yang tejadi.. kenangan pahit dan manis aku takan lupekan.. thanks pada mak angkat aku sebab banyak bagi kata kata semangat supaya aku kuat mengharungi hari yang mendatang.. kenangan paling manis pada taon lepas bile aku da bebaik semula ngan beshfren aku June.. kerana peselisihan paham yang tejadi antara kami.. alhamdulillah.. merasa la almost 3,4 bulan tak betego, sms, cal.. memang sunyi gile hidop aku.. diz month aku kembali ngan kehidupan yang agak terok.. asek kua mencari sesuatu yang baru.. mencari kepuasan.. menghabeskan mase ngan mende mende yang nta pape.. hahahaha~ banyak gile orang bising bile aku cani.. tapi.. bukan aku nak wat mende neh.. bukan aku suke nak wat cani.. setiap ape yang aku wat dalam idop aku.. sume ade sebab sebab tesendiri.. bia la hanye aku je yang taw ape sebabnye..

Bermula bulan Jan 2011.. memacam yang tejadi.. macam macam manusia aku kenal.. macam macam perangai.. macam macam kes!! hahaaha~
Dia muncul.. dia pegi.. muncul lagi manusia lain.. n now stay.. hepy.. terasa la ade yang menjaga aku.. menego ape yang salah.. ape yang betol.. thanks to u.. coz menyinari semula hidop aku yang agak suram.. n thanks to kawan lelaki aku.. wat aku hepy.. ceriakan ari ari aku ngan lawak jenaka korang.. to Tamara n June.. thanks coz owez ade d waktu aku memerlukan korang.. tanpa korang.. tatau la aku cane.. to "DIA" keegoan ko aku bole hidu.. n akhirnya ko mengaku gak.. even aku kenal ko sementara waktu.. tapi.. setiap ape yang ko cube lakukan.. aku bole taw.. biala tuhan yang menentukan segalanya.. masih banyak masa n waktu untuk membetolkan ape yang tak betol.. hanya kite yang bole mengubah naseb kite..

Azam 2011?? hmm aku malas nak beazam.. bukan telaksana pown hahahaha~ juz hope sume yang tebelit tepusing neh akan kembali reda secepat mungkin.. saket da pale aku.. tak larat da.. sampai aku rase cam da bosan ngan idop.. tapi nak wat cane kan.. nak tanak.. kena hadap gak.. hopefully aku dapat lagi betahan.. tapi sampai bile?? sigh~

Oke la.. aku pown da tatau nak bebel ape.. kang aku bebel panjang panjang.. korang bosan lak nak bace.. hahahahha~ pape pown aku tetap aku.. aku tetap sewel, sengal cane yang korang tau.. miahahahahaha~ korang ade?? hahahaha~ shhhhhhhhhhhhh~ injit injit semut.. sape saket naek atas.. injit injit semut.. sape saket naek atas.. haaaa cecite cecite.. neh kak limahnye penangan.. hamek!!! zasssssssssssss~

**idop aku skang dikelilingi ngan orang orang sengal seperti:- Gemok, Tamara, June, Brian, Fikri, Zaidi, Mail, Si idong besa, Gegerls kg baru.. memang tebaekkkk~ thank la korang.. wat aku betambah sengal hahahahahaahaha~  ♥ korang..... muahahahahaahahaha~

Kambing asek mengembek,
Pale aku da sumbek..
Aku bejalan sampai ke melaka,
Takleh nak sumbek sangat nanti ade yang murka..
Beli gula kedai cik lela,
Oke la aku nak bla..
Orang kate aku kelam,
Bye korang, Selamat Malam~
Miahahahahahahahaha.....

♥♥♥♥

I’m so lost, confused, and hurt..Someone help my broken heart. Look for the rainbow in every storm. People ask me if I believe in forever but I just laugh, because the way my life is going right now, I hardly believe in tomorrow. There’s always something more you wish he’d say. Life is a pen, you can cross out your past but you can’t erase it. I’ll never mean to you, what you mean to me, because we are “just friend” and that’s all we’ll ever be. If my heart stops for you, will you stop for it? The easy part is pretending to hate you. The hard part is admitting. I will love you forever. You broke my heart…so why do I still love you? Even though we’re not together, I still love you with all my heart. Why can’t I feel anything for anyone else except for you? The only thing I will never forget is I want to hate you but I can’t. There are worst things than losing the person you love… that’s watching them fall in love with someone else. My heart broke, and I had no one to help me pick up the pieces. They say time heals everything but I’m still waiting. I’m counting the days and nights until I can hear a love song without wanting to cry. My heart skips a beat every time I hear you speak. When your heart gets broken you tend to see cracks in everything else. The only boy who deserves you is the one who thinks he doesn’t. the hardest thing about falling in love is falling out. All you have to do is hand me a rose and smile. How long will it be till I am assured, that you want to be mine forever? My heart belongs to you, can I please have yours too? How do you know when to use your head or your heart? I still can’t breathe when I think of us and the memories we shared. I dream about you every night, and every morning I wish I had stayed asleep. I don’t want to forget. You might regret what you did, but you’ll regret what you didn’t do even more. I wish I knew how to tell you what I feel inside where all my hopes reside. A gentle touch speaks volume. Love is forever misunderstood. Lately I’ve been drawing broken hearts. If you want true love you must go through the pain. The best memories are the ones you can’t explain. Tired of trying, sick of crying, ya I’m smiling, but inside I’m dying. No one ever died from a broken heart they just wished they did. It’s easy to love him but hard to tell him. Believe in those you love. You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly. It hurts so bad.. I feel like all my happiness was just thrown back into my face. You said “I love you” I said too.. The only difference is I didn’t lie to you. The hardest part of love is deciding when to hang on or let go. I never stopped loving him I just stopped letting it show. The hardest things to say are the ones mean the most. If it comes from the heart, the decision is never wrong. Trust with your heart, not your head. I don’t know what to say in case you take back what we had again. Pain doesn’t hurt.. When it’s all you’ve ever felt. What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? Never make someone you everything, because when they’re gone you’ll have nothing. The problem with love is that you can love who you want but so can he I wonder when he’ll find out he’s all I ever think about. Force a smile and blink away the tears. One smile can mean more than a dozen roses. Your hands are mine to hold. Which hurts more? Thinking you should hate him or knowing that you don’t? I would die for you over and over again. You gave me a smile. I could never forget. It hurts to see that you moved on without me. Love is the slowest form suicide. I don’t think you realize how easily you make me smile. Keep the promises you make to yourself. Ask me why I keep on loving you when it’s clear that you don’t feel the same way for me.. The problem is that as much as. I can’t force you to love me; I can’t force myself to stop loving you. I feel so weak without your touch. When you are alone, do you sit and think about all of the memories we shared with each other? My hope dangles on a string. If I cried would you wash away my tears? You spoke such pretty words. Too bad they were all lies. I don’t remember days.. I remember moments. We want this dream to be reality. We want the reality to become dreams. Sweet words are easy to say. Sweet things are easy to buy, but sweet people are difficult to find. So much pain behind these ayes. Look into my eyes.. Look into my heart.. Look into my soul.. You’re the one that tore it all apart. I can live without you. I just have figure out how. Pain lasts a minute but regret lasts a lifetime. Only after you’ve lost everything are you free to do anything. I believed every lie you said. Today is what I worried about the most yesterday. Hope ends when you stop believing, love ends when you stop caring, friendship ends when you stop sharing. Tears are the words the heart can’t say. Life is not measured by the number of breathe we take, but by the number of moments that our breath away. You will never know how many of my tears have been lost over you. All I want is a kiss in the rain. Tell someone you love them today, you may not have a tomorrow. Why, with a much pain as it endures in hanging on, does the heart refuse to let go? I want to look at you and know that you love me. Bit by bit you take a part of my already shattered heart. My mind tells me to give up, but my heart won’t let me. Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around. Every time someone asks me if I’m ok it’s just a reminder that I’m not. Who do you turn to when the only person who can stop your crying is the one who made you cry? I dropped a tear in the ocean, the day I find it is the day I’ll stop loving you. Time appears to pass. Things appear to change. Yet, I still appear to love you. Love is not free. The price is your heart. I knew you loved you once upon a thousand nights, and everything seemed to be so real, yet you seemed to have forgotten. Never give up if you still want to try. Never wipe away your tears if you still want to cry. Never settle with an answer if you still want to know. Never say that you don’t love him if you can’t let him go. Love. Its dreadful thing and so easily severed. The point is we can’t help who we fall in love with. False hope is better than no hope at all. You begin to realize how much someone has affected your life when you can longer do anything or look at something without being reminded of them. Even if it takes the rest of my life, I will wait for you. Things don’t just happen! You have to make them happen. There is an empty space in my heart that no one else would ever be able to fill except for you. I hate you but I love you and can’t stop thinking of you. I don’t think I could ever love someone else as much I love you. After awhile you learn the difference between holding a hand and falling in love. You begin to learn that kisses don’t always mean something; promises can be broken just as quickly as they are made, and sometime goodbyes really are forever. Viva forever. I’ll be waiting. Everlasting like the sun. Live forever. For the moment. Ever searching for the one. Do you miss me? Cause I miss you more every day. I hate the way I could never hate you and the fact I’ll always love you no matter what you put me through. I’ll always care about you as much as I used to. If I had to choose between loving you and breathing then I would use my last breathe to tell you that I love you. It’s not that I ever stopped loving you. I just up on you loving me. It’s really pathetic how I keep trying to hold on to something that’s not coming back. I want you to want me. I just can’t erase you. Don’t you forget about me? It’s hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen but it’s even harder to give up especially when it’s everything you ever wanted. I don’t like seeing what you’ve become. I don’t regret a single thing that we did except for one thing. Letting you just walk away. Just when I thought you hated me, you turn around and do something totally amazing and I love you again. Love is the most complicated thing in the world but it makes everything worth it!

Assalammualaikum :)

hyep! hmm.. arini aku tak bape nak sehat.. having fever since sun mownin.. nta nape tetibe bole demam lak.. tekak aku bengkak sebelah ( tonsil ) sampai tadi aku batuk kua darah + kahak.. euww~ hmm mungkin demam sebab telalu kuat bekeje before kot.. pape pon.. today aku da rase kurang sket.. alhamdulillah.. bile da sehat neh.. mule la tak gheti nak dok diam.. abes sume web aku nak bukak.. nta ape yang aku carik pown aku tatau hahahaha~


Pejam celik pejam celik.. almost 1 weeks aku tak keje.. hmm ape la nak jadi neih?? adeihh~ memacam aku dok pk.. pasal furture aku, Camer.. famly.. keje.. nek bingung aku dibuatnye.. masalah lain lagi.. hmm tadi.. saje la aku membelek en3 yang lelame kat dalam belog burok aku neh.. terlalu banyak suka dan duka.. bagi aku.. past is past.. hmm memang la rasa tekilan yang amat sangat.. sebab supposed aku akan bekawen.. tapi tup tup.. aku putuskan.. ada sebab - sebak tertentu kenapa aku berbuat demikian.. n aku mintak.. tak perlu la sesiapa bertanya tentang tu.. aku da malas nak pk.. hope korang paham.. pape pon.. aku kena kuat hadapi sume kenyataan ini.. walaupun pada hakikatnya.. aku tak sekuat mana.. tapi.. aku harus hadapi sume neh.. thanks kat Dia, kawan - kawan aku, kakak angkat aku, n mak angkat aku.. yang banyak bagi nasehat, kuatkan aku.. tanpa korang.. aku rasa.. aku tak dapat bertahan.. thank alots..


Skang aku nak kena wat planning untuk menjadi yang terbaek.. yes! aku bole!! doakan aku yer...~ insyallah bila ada lagi masa n lappy teluang.. aku hapdet lagi.. dadaa~

somebody dedicated diz to me :) thxxxx

Here For You


So you think you've got it all figured out
Well you know you can't make it alone
Everybody needs somebody to help them out
And you know I could be that someone

And if you ever get lost on life's highway
Don't know where to go
There's just one thing that I want you to know

I am here for you, always here for you
When you need a shoulder to cry on
Someone to rely on, I am here for you

So you think that love is long overdue
Tired of looking for someone to care
Let me tell you now the choice is up to you
But you know I will always be there

I am here for you, always here for you
When you're needin' someone to hold you
Remember I told you
I am here for you
I am here for you

So now you've got it all figured out
And you know you've found someone that cares
And if you ever need somebody to help you out
Well you know I will always be there

And if you ever get lost on life's highway
Don't know where to go
There's just one thing that I want you to know

I am here for you, always here for you
When you're needin' someone to hold you
Remember I told you
I am here for you, I am here for you

Hyep

Salam..
Hmm.. aku taktau nak mulakan bicara cane.. yang pasti.. aku nak meluahkan.. banyak benda.. akan aku huraikan satu persatu.. memula skali.. aku nak share ngan korang.. betapa gumbiranye aku.. sebab anak aku, Mohammad Syamir a.k.a Adek camer (dibahasakan sendiri olehnya) sudah memulakan persekolahannya pada 3hb Januari 2011 ari tuh.. neh ade la sikit video yang dirakam oleh aku. moh la kite tengok..

neh mase Camer kt dalam kelas die.. tengah sebok sebut and tunjuk kat cekgu dia ABC.. cekgu soh sebut.. dia tunjuk.. cekgu soh tunjuk dia sebot.. aduhh~ penin hahahaha..

Time tengah sebok nak menyetelkan sekolah Camer.. aku dapat berita yang kurang menarik.. disebabkan aku ambik Emergency leave ( EL ) mase company aku tengah closing ari tuh.. contract aku dibatalkan.. nak di pk kan secara logiknya.. aku da bagitau malam sebelom aku nak amek EL tuh.. aku abes je OT, aku teros begegas balek uma.. sebab siang tuh mak aku cal.. bagitau borang sekolah Camer nak kena hantar before 31st Dec.. aku mengaku memang salah aku.. sebab lambat daftar Camer sekolah.. tapi aku wat cani sume ade sebab.. aku masih takde pendapatan kukuh.. camne aku nak daftar awal2? aku sampai je uma.. aku street mesej kat bos and supervisor aku yang aku amek EL esoknya untuk setelkan sume yang berkaitan ngan sekolah Camer.. 

Pepagi aku bangon.. pegi sekolah, pegi beli baju, amek gambar, wat salinan surat branak, beli buku.. pegi sekolah balek anta borang yang da complete.. bayar yuran.. petang kol 4 lebih baru setel.. sampai uma. aku mesej offismate aku.. nak tanya la esok keje gak ke.. sebab ari Jumaat ari tuh kan PM bagi cuti 1 Malaysia pasal bola tuh.. so aku juz nak confirmation jek.. alih2 officemate aku reply cakap.. "Pra cakap.. akak takyah datang da. esok akak datang juz amek barang2 akak jek.. nak tau lebih details tanya En. Azniel.." warning letter tade.. alih2 tros kena batal?? aku call bos aku untuk mendapatkan kepastian.. ternyata ape yang officemate aku cakap betol.. but bukan bos aku yang decide camtuh.. tapi bos dalam department aku.. hmm.. tak patot btol.. takpe la.. mungkin tade rezeki aku kat situ..

Cukup la 3 bulan aku keje kat situ.. lagipon memang aku nak carik keje len.. coz keje situ pon contract 1 yer.. tade benefit.. keje non stop.. rasa cam tak berbaloi.. skang aku masih menganggur.. sebab tade orang nak jaga, anta n amek Camer pegi/balek skolah.. hmm banyak sangat dugaan yang melanda aku.. :(

Aku nak stop cite sampai sini dulu.. tade idea :( nanti aku hapdet lagi.. chow sin chi~

Thx giv diz song por me.. Leb it!

Penyanyi: Black
Tajuk Lirik Lagu: Sofea Jane

Donload Song

Kau ibarat permata di dalam hiasan kaca
Yang tak bisa disentuh
Namun hanya boleh dipandang
Ingin sekali ku sentuh
Ingin jua ku memiliki
Kau selalu membuat hatiku merasa berat
Dan kau yang selalu ada
Saat semua pergi
Bagaimana mungkin
Untuk kau mengerti
Kini telah ku sedari
Mimpiku tak bererti sendiri

Andai kau tahu
Apa yang ku mahu
Mahukan dirimu ‘tuk mendekatiku
Dan aku tak bisa memaksa dirimu
Walau dalam tidur
Ku kan menantimu hingga akhir nanti
Kau selalu membuat hatiku merasa berat
Dan kau yang selalu ada
Saat semua pergi
Bagaimana mungkin
Untuk kau mengerti
Kini telah ku sedari
Mimpiku tak bererti sendiri

Salam..

Assalammualaikum to all my frens.. my readers.. thanks coz still support me.. mesti korang tertanye.. mane hilangnye aku.. hmm panjang citenye.. pape pon.. skang aku bersyukur kerana aku masih lagi bole meneruskan hidup setelah berbagai rintangan yang harus aku hadapi, berbagai cubaan yang harus aku harungi.. alhamdulillah.. aku masih dapat bertahan dengan segala yang mendatang.. kita manusia biasa yang tak pernah lari dari masalah.. yang tak pernah lari dari cubaan dan dugaan.. aku sentiasa ingat pepatah tuh.. aku anggap setiap kejadian yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya.. 


Skang aku tak dapat nak berbelog seperti dulu.. kerana ketiadaan lappy.. so if aku online pon hanya menggunakan HP.. lagipon skang aku bz dengan keje.. kehidupan.. banyak mende yang aku nak kena prepare, nak kena get ready.. 


Aku bersyukur dipertemukan dengan seseorang insan yang bergelar lelaki.. hadir dalam hidup aku.. memberi aku satu sinar kehidupan.. memberi aku semangat.. walaupun ianya tak dapat bertahan.. yang pasti aku beterima kasih kerana memberi aku ruang untuk aku meluahkan, tempat untuk aku bermanja.. setiap yang datang dan pergi.. pasti ada sebab tertentu yang kita sendiri tak tau apa sebab dan puncanya.. aku redha.. ini ujian dari-Nya.. aku akur.. ini jalan hidup aku.. mungkin ini yang sudah tertulis.. pape pown thank alots to Asnani Ashak.. coz banyak bagi aku semangat disaat aku down.. banyak tolong aku.. jasa baik dia terhadap aku.. aku akan kenang sampai aku mati.. aku mintak maaf kalau aku ade tekasar bahsa.. aku manusia biasa yang tak pernah lari dari membuat kesilapan.. salah silap kau kat aku pon aku da lama maafkn.. 


Panjang lagi kisah hidup aku yang aku harus hadapi dan harungi.. masih panjang lagi perjalanan ini.. aku sekadar meluahkan apa yang terpendam.. sekurangnya aku rasa lega.. alhamdulillah kurang sikit rasa bebanan kat dalam otak aku.. 


Thanks kat sume readers.. pelawat, kawan2.. yang sudi baca.. menyinggah kat belog burok aku yang da bersawang, bekerak da neh.. nanti kalau ada masa, peluang untuk aku bebelog.. aku akan cite lagi apa yang aku nak cite k.. arios.. salam~

Selamat Hari Raya

Di kesempatan ini.. aku ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya to all followers n readers.. Maaf Zahir Batin.. sori la da lame tak hapdet.. besawang rawang da belog burok aku neh.. dan akan sampai bebile la dia berawang2 neh.. sebab aku da susa nak online..

Raya yang biasa bagi aku.. seperti tahun2 lepas.. aku sendirian.. hanya di temani kawan2 yang senantiase mengembirakan aku.. Im NO longer someone FIANCE..


to all.. thank alots coz always support.. ;)

New Entry

There are no mistake in life.. Just lessons :)

aku malas nak online.. aku ingin bersendirian.. terima kasih :D

New Design

akhirnya.... akuh telah berani.. menuka background belog burok akuh.. hahhahaha :p

Sakit

Aku sakit terok. 

Puas ati kauuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hurmm.. lately neh akuh kemalasan mengapdet belog burok akuh.. sebab akuh kebizian.. kebizian yang amat sangat.. dengan tuttttttttttttttttttttttt! hari itu semakin hampir.. nanti akuh bagitau korang yer.. aku akan upload sekalik gamba meletop terletop akuh tuh.. memang meletop nanti korang nengok.. sure nye.. tapi jangan mara akuh kalau akuh tak bagitau korang.. sebab sumenye teramat la kelam kabot.. dan masa sangat singkat.. yela pejam celik pejam celik da dekat nak pose.. then raya.. then Abit balek Arab.. then 3 bulan kat sana.. then tak tahu la nak cakap cane.. adoiii!

pape pown.. mood saye.. tersangat la excited! tak tahu nak xplain cane.. lalalalalalalalalala~ dari skang.. saye dengan rasa hormatnye.. membilang hari.. dengan jari jemari hingga ke kaki.. tettttttttt! please keep quiet. thank you :D

hahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahhahahampegas!

Life is everythings

Some people might say life sucks
or life is full of shit
While other people say life is beautiful
or life is full of surprises
I must say, I agree with all those
Life is whatever you think of it..and everything you think of it
Life is what you make it of it and what you say of it.

Life is about sadness
Life is about happiness
Life is about pain
Life is miserable
Life is about loss
Life is about smiling
Life is about crying
Life is about love
Life is about laughter
Life is about learning from your mistakes
Life is horrible
Life is dumb
Life is awesome
Life is depression
Life is tears
Life is sorrow
Life is anxiety
Life is Bullshit
Life stinks
Life sucks
I could go on and on and tell you all about life
But I'm not here to sort this out for you
cuz..
Life is all about you and how you treat it
You criticizes it...well, you're actually criticizing yourself
You like it, you hate it..well, its all up to you
Life is you so be careful how you describe it

Life

Life defines in Metabolism,
In reproduction,
we make our miniature selves,
our look alike
In the power of adaptation,
like what is in now,
What is fashionable,
how I blend with all of you
How I mimic you,
how I become a clown to you,

Life in being nice
This is my life A short and a merry one
This my life In the middle of my own life
To life,
a life,
in the hope of discovering the meaning of my life,
My speech my poetry
Come to life with me
To the life,
for the life of one like me,
Not taking this life in my own hands,
Never,
never,
To life,
this is life
As big as life
as large as life is large
In resiliency,
in elasticity
Animations, cartooning, animate,
I vivify
I vilify
I quicken
I liken
The life force in my life’s functions
Drawn from life
to life drawn
Dream to life a life full of dreams
This liveliness, this sparkle
This effervescence of life,
this bubbling life like wine
This sprightliness like soft
Drink like energy drinks
This verve,
this vigor
this vivacity
Of life to life as big as life
My life
This is my life
This me I am life
I am energy
i am in this poem trying to run
away from everything in my life,
running in life
to life and life,
because of life,
for life.

♥ Bibit

my love one n forever.. comel tak korang?? neh adiah for Anniversary akuh pada 19th June ari tuh.. thx Abit.. ♥ u Bibit